Bryan's Hideout
The Only Place I Can Be Myself

4 (F.r.i.e.n.d.s)

By Bryan
Lately, all my post is about you.
But just for today, i wana write about my friends.
Yeap, all those awesome friends around me. =)
Yesterday was just like any ordinary life in Muar.
Nothing much to do accept holing myself up in my room,
starting at my "I wonder how many inch" lappy's LCD screen.

Went to temple to pray as usual,
eat veges instead of meat like normal. (i am a vegetarian for now...at least for a week... =D )
then Neo (my good friend from Muar) asked me if wana minum.
So yeah, i agrred and both of us went out to Da Ying Mu ( mamak stall near Pei Yang).
He noticed the sadness in my eyes,
the fatigue in my body.
that's why he asked me out for a drink,
so i can pour everything out.
So basically, yesterday night was all about me....lolz...
but i felt good after that.
At least someone is willing to listen to my problems,
especially after i came back home.
Thanks Neo.

Aside from friends at Muar,
i am glad i have good friends in Kampar as well.
Members of Moonlitekidz (Eugene, Austin, QS, Ah Bi)
and clubhouse 99 (Ocean and Jason) that never fails to make my day,
i find joy when i am with them.
The jamming sessions, the Dota sessions,
yum cha sessions, the trips we had been,
Mcdonald sessions. =)

As for my classmates, the BBA T1 family,
i dote them all. =)
they contributed the memories i spent with them throughout my degree,
and i believe more memories are soon to be created.
thanks to you guys
(chai may, khai shin, k see, albee, xuan, hu khim, kenneth,
hew fen, kar yee, shu wen, valerie, yik siang, siang chin, hui yee, xue jun, fuji, chee sing,
oh zhi, ah tan, sue yee, mei lai, yik fong, carlos, mei yi, seow peng, cindy, kathlyn),
each and everyone of you guys made my life so interesting.
I am glad i am part of BBA T1...lolz...
Whenever i am down,
my classmates will be there for me as well.
Special thanks to Yik Siang for giving me the courage and support,
without you, i guess i will never take the step.

I wish things will remain the same till we graduate,
or even after we graduate,
because this guy here cant bear to see anyone around him leave his circle.

Well, this is some random post about my friends,
I wonder why i wrote this,
but i am treasuring all the friendships i have now... ;)
So to all my friends,
Deep down in my heart, you guys are always a part of me.

"Lately, i am having dreams that you belonged to someone now,
is it a sign, or am i thinking too much?
Whenever i close my eyes, all my dreams were about you"


My BBA T1 Family
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By Bryan

I don't want this moment to ever end
Where everythings nothing without you
I'll wait here forever just to, to see you smile
'Cause it's true, I am nothing without you

Through it all, I made my mistakes
I stumble and fall, but I mean these words

I want you to know
With everything I won't let this go,
these words are my heart and soul
I'll hold on to this moment you know,
'cause I'd bleed my heart out to show
And I won't let go

Thoughts read unspoken, forever in doubt
Pieces of memories fall to the ground
I know what I didn't have so, I won't let this go
'Cause it's true, I am nothing without you

All the streets where I walked alone, with nowhere to go
I've come to an end

I want you to know
With everything I won't let this go,
these words are my heart and soul
I'll hold on to this moment you know,
'cause I'd bleed my heart out to show
And I won't let go

In front of your eyes, it falls from the skies
When you don't know what you're looking to find
In front of your eyes, it falls from the skies
When you just never know what you will find (what you will find)

I don't want this moment to ever end
Where everythings nothing without you

I want you to know
With everything I won't let this go,
these words are my heart and soul
I'll hold on to this moment you know,
'cause I'd bleed my heart out to show
And I won't let go (I want you to know)

With everything I won't let this go,
these words are my heart and soul
I'll hold on to this moment you know,
'cause I'd bleed my heart out to show
And I won't let go

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Perfectly suit my current situation now.
~I just want you to know~

"Been dreaming of you everytime i sleep,
That's how much i miss you right now,
but i guess you will never know"
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Day 1 being apart from you

By Bryan
Finally, it's the end of our trip...
Lots of enjoyable memories created,
Lots of fun hanging out together.
From Cameron to Kuala Lumpur.
All those memories,
i will not forget.

Did something that will change everything,
i wonder how will it end up...
But i don't care about all these.
Just have fun and ignore it for now,
and choose what you think will be best for you.
Then, i will be satisfied enough.

For now, i still couldn't face the fact,
that after this trip,
we will be apart.....
how i wish all this is nothing but a nasty dream.
i wana wake up,
and the first thing i wana see,
is your face smiling at me.
So, wake me up when all of these is over.
But one thing is for sure,
I never regret that you are the one who stole my heart.
I couldn't do anything, but with all my heart and soul,
I sincerely pray,
that you will be truly happy,
now and in the future.

P/S: thanks to all my friends for the early birthday celebration/surprise...
that is indeed the most unique and happiest birthday celebration i ever had.
I am really happy to be part of BBA T1 family..... =)

"Specially dedicated to you,
I am really glad that i fell in love with you,
and i have no regrets"
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Day 3

By Bryan
In a blink of an eye, here's day 3...
and tomorrow's the day u are coming back to kampar to visit us... ==
can't even imagine how fast time past.... =\
today, i can see that your mood's kinda good.
I am not sure if you are hiding your feelings very well,
or you are genuinely happy today,
but it kinda feels good and relieve to see you just fine.
Indeed, as long as you are happy,
this stupid guy here is happy for you as well.... =)
Can even bully me tim~~~ (don't piak me~~don't~~~)
too bad you cant get to watch the show you wana watch so much.
But if it's possible, maybe we can catch the show tomorrow night.. lolz...
Our exam's over tomorrow so no worries... ^^
After you left, you are more anxious of our results compared to ourself... ><
constantly asking us how well we did in our exams.
I guess it's your way to show that you still care about us,
and also to keep in touch with us.
In a few days time,
we will be going to Cameron Highland.
I pray hard....
Please, just let the time pass by super slow while we are on top of the hill.
Let us enjoy every bit of memories that we will soon to create up there.
I just wana see your smile,
just a little longer.
For i am an addict, who is addicted to you and your smile.
Another reason for me to be happy is that
4th aunt seems to be doing very well in combating her illness. =)
Tho our chat lasted only a few minutes,
but i can hear that you are quite healthy despite the illness plaguing your body.
How i wish i can see you soon too. =(
4th Aunt, take care of yourself yeah.
Don't ever give up, for we will never give up on you.

"To stop doing something you really hate is not giving up,
but to waste your life doing something you really hate,
that's what i call giving up,
for you are giving up your happiness in life"
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Day 2

By Bryan
Yeah...more and more people found out that you were not in Kampar anymore.
Everyone starts to wonder why u stopped all of a sudden.
It's heart wrenching to see all those sad comments or PM's
dedicated to you.
Sooner or later,
everyone's gona cheer up again.
But the question is, when??

It's only the 2nd day....
and final's far from over.
I guess all we have to do now is fight,
and do our best.
With you supporting all of us from ur hometown,
I guess all we can do is to try our very best to complete this final.
Too me u seemed to be ok,
but, are you really ok??
you seem to put up a brave front,
but deep inside,
i guess it hurts a little to be apart from all those friends u met here.
Stay strong ya~
BBA T1 will always be there to support you...
and as for me,
your number 1 pet will be you pillar of support,
whatever you do, this pet will be there for you. =)
Fight and believe in your way!!!
Suffering from insomnia...
seems like the shock is a little too big for me eh?
Just like you, i have to put up a brave front too...
I wouldn't want you to see me sad,
for if the pet crumbles, who is going to support the owner?
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Day 1

By Bryan
It's the very first day you left Kampar....
While we are busy taking our test,
perhaps,
you are busy sleeping....lolz... (don't piak me if you saw this)

Out of 5 people online today,
3 persons' PM were about you,
Not to forget those who are offline,
and extra 2 offliners' PM were for you.
and an assumption of 19 people were unaware of this matter.
Those who knew are still having problems sorting out their feelings after you left.
I wonder....will we ever go back the way it was?
And the answer,
perhaps it's a big NO....


As for me?
Yeah...i am officially missing you.
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Tough Period

By Bryan
Yeah...it's a tough time for me and my friends....
something unexpected happened,
all we can do is just look,
shed some tears,
and move on....
looking back occasionally,
but never forget what's coming next.
We will do our best,
fight on your behalf.
We will make you proud.

That's all i can say now,
i'm still holding the promise i made.
so make sure you hold yours yeah?
~Good luck to everyone in their finals~
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A friend, A Foe?

By Bryan

Life's weird...
or should i say humans are weird creatures....
each have their distinctive characteristic...
a friend that broke up a year ago told me...
throughout the year,
they doesn't talk much,
even a conversation is difficult to start,
needless to say to maintain the conversation between both of them.
of course he felt sad,
for once a couple, when both go their separate ways,
it takes time to acknowledge each other as a friend again.
For him, the cool off period is over.
Last week, they started to converse normally.
But by his point of view,
he find it weird to converse so normally, so naturally.

Ain't it weird?
when you broke up, u feel sad and wanted to catch the love back.
but then, when you are back to how you wanted to be,
you find it weird.
yeah...i must say, if it's me, i might feel the same way.

well...here's another story.
which i find even weird.
both are friends at first.
a guy and a gal.
soon, the guy developed feelings for da gal.
a series of event happened (don't know much about the details)
and the guy started avoiding the gal.
as if they never knew each other.
hmmm...they are still friends,
if you don't wana talk,
just smile....too me it ain't hard to smile...
just pull up your lips and there you go,
a smile on your face.
sigh.....

sad to say, i faced all those situations above before.
not exactly the same,
but still, the feeling of being ignored kinda sucks.
imagine u saw your ex somewhere,
u try to greet her,
but she totally ignored u...
sucky isn't it?lolz...
to me, i still believe in the word,
no matter what happens,
Once a friend, always a friend.
face the fact,
face reality.
If you are unhappy,
find ways to discuss.
your life's precious,
but friends are equally precious as well.
because you will never know when you might need a friend. =)

sigh...exam's around the corner.
1 more day to study.
hope i can do it.
as for others besides exams,
lets just forget everything for now during the exam...
it's tiring,
i am a little exhausted.... =')
so....all i need is a little break,
then i will catch up with you.

Waiting is only tiring, but not torturing.
I wouldn't mind waiting a thousand years,
all i need is the smile on your face.
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